Comments on: Flutter

By: britni

britni — Thu, 30 Dec 2010 19:25:53 +0000

I first read this when it was originally published. I found it again through a roundabout circumstance, and it still takes my breath away. Thank you, Flutter, for allowing us to share in your story. I know the pain it is heavy, but we are here for you. Sending my love to you wherever you may be.

By: lindaloohoo

lindaloohoo — Mon, 13 Sep 2010 04:03:52 +0000

he couldn’t steal your beauty. it stands, shining and bright, or dark and terrible, but wholly yours.

my heart breaks for your enormous loss and looks in wonder at your amazing strength.

By: Krystle @snarkykisses

Krystle @snarkykisses — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 13:47:10 +0000

You are amazing. Simply amazing.

By: Untypically Jia

Untypically Jia — Tue, 11 May 2010 19:25:04 +0000

I struggle for words to say to you after reading this. I want to say how awful that was, how sorry I am . . . all the cliches that sometimes bother me because I too am a survivor. All I am left with is this:

YOU ARE POWERFUL!

By: JD

JD — Sun, 28 Mar 2010 11:18:26 +0000

I hardly know what to say… That such a thing can happen, that such a person could exist today, and not just in stories…

I’m so very, very sorry. And I realise… I am so very naive.

Please know that I am praying for you, for your health and your peace of mind.

By: Bee

Bee — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 20:51:05 +0000

You are telling everyone, survivor and sadist, that you will not back down, you will not fear anymore, you are a force to be reckoned with, you are powerful, and evil has no hold. Not only no claim to you, but you have extinguished its smirk, its tenuous victory it though it had, for you ripped it away, and morphed that victory into your own, your “perfect stand,” your pinnacle.

You inspire so many people, so many little girls, so many “unsure” boys, so many scared older women who never got their story “straight,” couldn’t recall or didn’t want to recall all those horrid details that would help release the sadists’ hold.

I can be such a volatile, righteous, vengeful spirit. I use my height, my frame, my carriage, my strength and ice cold direct aim to intimidate the evil. I can imagine doing unspeakable dark things to the sadists’ that try to rob us of…ourselves. I’ve lashed out, for myself, for my sisters, I’ve hurt bullies and scared the scariest son of a bitch out there, infusing my brain with my own past’s fear and letting that fuel my rage, but I’ve graphic dreams in between night terrors, of taking control back, of doing so much more than scare them for that is not enough, of making them suffer, of torturing all those that have taken others’ spirits, their light. To be the force that the judicial system isn’t.

But, then I read your story, and see that my way is not one of healing. Not one of long-term benefits, and that vengeance will feel empty after the sadists are dead, but their memory, their hold survives. You have broken that seal. You killed that surviving hold it had on you, and everyday you grind your heel in its dusty bones, every time you wake up, every time you love or laugh or cry, every time you tell us, every time someone reads this.

Thank you, Flutter, for sharing these pieces of you, and for making yourself so whole and so female. Such an experience has yielded great suffering, but so much more belief and trust in human spirit, in the strength of a strong heart to achieve what so many are unable. Your honesty in living life, your vivacity, your real peace, to thrive and push back the ominous tendrils that could consume us, reinforces for us the good, the light, the truth and makes me want to reach towards humans, instead of hiding in the shadows.

Thank you.

By: blues

blues — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 14:24:02 +0000

I love you Flutter. You’re so brave.

By: Fragrant Liar

Fragrant Liar — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 03:36:22 +0000

My words can only fall far short of what I’m feeling inside for the pain you and your family have endured. My best, kindest, most supportive thoughts I send to you. And thank you for sharing your story. You are indeed courageous, and you’re not a victim anymore.

By: Liz

Liz — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 23:52:45 +0000

God, Almighty, you have taken my breath away. You are brave beyond comprehension. Thank you.

By: Boliath

Boliath — Thu, 20 Aug 2009 02:21:11 +0000

It has been amazing to read your transformation, you seem to be going through an empowering change and I applaud you once again for the courage and strength you show reaching out to people who cannot express their pain as eloquently as you do. Bravo flutter, bravo.